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Only Here, Only Now

A Novel

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"Only Here, Only Now heralds the arrival of an urgent and unique new voice, as engaging and as startling as Paddy Clarke Ha Ha Ha, Morvern Callar or The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time."—David Peace

A brilliant new talent writing from lived experience makes his debut with this irresistible and original story in the vein of Young Mungo and Hang the Moon, that pierces the beautiful, brilliant, and lightning-quick mind of a teenage girl growing up with undiagnosed ADHD in working-class Scotland.

In the blazing hot summer of 1994, there's nothing for Cora Mowat to do but hang around in empty parking lots. Stuck in her Mom's small house and tired of her own restless mind, she's desperate to break free of the limits of Fife but unsure of what the future holds—if it holds anything at all for a girl like her trying to find her way in the world.

After her mother invites a new man to live with them, tensions quickly rise in the cramped house. Gunner is kind but strange, too—a one-eyed shoplifter with more than a few hidden secrets. But when tragedy strikes shortly after, Cora rebels against her small-town existence in search of love, acceptance, and a path to something good. If only she can learn to navigate her grief and everything she thinks she knows about who she is and what she might be capable of, she may finally find the way forward.

In this extraordinary debut, drawn from experience but written with riotous imagination, Tom Newlands explores a teenage girl's coming-of-age in post-industrial Scotland and what it means to yearn for a life that feels out of reach. Vibrant, lyrical and fiercely funny, Only Here, Only Now is a story of identity and family that shines with hope and resilience.

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    • Publisher's Weekly

      Starred review from September 16, 2024
      Newlands debuts with a stirring portrait of a 14-year-old neurodivergent Scottish girl dealing with grief and restlessness. It’s 1994, and Cora Mowat dreams of leaving dull Muircross behind (“The town looked like a handful of gray gravel chucked up the coast”). She’s been dealt a rough hand ever since her father was electrocuted to death while trying to steal copper from a mining tunnel 10 years ago. Since then, her mother, Maggie, who uses a wheelchair, has been bringing home questionable boyfriends. The latest, Gunner, shows promise as a father figure, taking Cora on walks and teaching her about birds, and he pledges to commit to her and her mother. Tragedy strikes again, though, when Maggie is fatally struck by a car, after which Gunner takes Cora in. Newlands does an excellent job portraying Cora’s undiagnosed ADHD (“Fucked-up hyperactive me and my excessive talking and my fucked-up future and my unbitten neck”), shedding light on the ways in which the condition was overlooked in the ’90s. The complex relationship between Cora and Gunner is particularly well rendered, as Cora copes by drinking heavily and Gunner confronts the limits of his ability to care for her. This vibrant coming-of-age story makes a big impression. Agent: Gráinne Fox, UTA.

    • AudioFile Magazine
      Narrator Amelia Leith convincingly presents this coming-of-age story set in 1990s Scotland. Listeners meet 14-year-old Cora, whose wheelchair-bound mother invites a one-eyed petty criminal named Gunner to live with them. Leith's endearing, independent Cora struggles in school and is protective of her mother. Varying descriptions of the changeable Scottish weather and the countryside add atmosphere that reflects an ongoing undertone of uncertainty. Listeners join Cora as she has her first crush, learns about trusting people, and participates in some minor misconduct. Strong accents, local slang, and nostalgic touches, such as Cora's Minnie Mouse alarm clock, add authenticity. Sudden tragedy shows a touching, outstandingly rendered Gunner to be an exceptional stepdad. Audio faultlessly conveys this poetic narrative based on the author's own experiences. S.G.B. © AudioFile 2025, Portland, Maine

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